Hi friends, how is going your new year?
On December 21 I wrote a blogpost on my notebook, but at least I didn’t published it. So let’s start again with a fresh new page.
2023 will be devoted at “CURATED MAKING”, both in my wish and intention list.
So at the moment I’m focused to this as never before, at the same time I feel anxiety to avoiding failure steps about my wish and intention, I am over the moon, read super excited, about those new things I am working on. Let me explain a bit further.
On December I felt very drained, tired and with no energy at all. The last month of 2022 I was in charge of duty and I felt broken apart. The only things I did, after work, was prepping meals, knitting a bit in the evening, watching tv series (which I’ll list them all on my next newsletter), and having long walks. I felt in need of rest most of all, to recovery also from a stressing year of family’s troubles. I also temporary suspended my facebook account on the last day od 2022.
From January 1st my energy level is going better and better, I also hope that some “clouds” are going away, so I can address my mind and energy also on what makes me feel happy and blessed. This has a bit of “Nostalgia” and magic in it, but you know, I can’t help, It was like the moment you encounter your “first love”: an explosion of emotions and joy.
You’ve to know from 1995 to 2008 circa I had joyful years full of creative ideas and plenty of making. Oh My, if only I think, it has been so many years ago! On those last 14 years I was much concentrated on my family and especially my son, I put most of my energy on mothering, and You know, time flies when you have children, especially if you have also a day job. In those past years, especially after I’ve got separated, I put away most of the things I was making and close them in a giant cabinet at my parents house. Once in a while, to charge my spirit, I go to visit and look at all those things. What I find every time is an incredible amount of handmade stuff, a sort of LABOR OF LOVE I made in the past.
So on January 1st, while I stare at the Giant Cabinet, I felt Blessed, I felt like a new start was beginning, I felt like I’m truly ready to pursue my creativity dream-life with renewed spirit and purpose.
I couldn’t believe how much things and Designs I made, yes, You know, Life happens and bla bla bla, especially when you came across hard times, but I asked to myself: “where I’ve been all that time?” “Where my spirit was?” Probably, as you already know, my creativity has been manifested in many art form, I’ve got my drawing and illustration, a bit of knitting and sewing as well to stay in the moment and to stay sane.
As a Quiet & Creative person I need often to recharge my energy by making something.
Well, to make it short, I am very excited about this new start… but also terrified!!! How can I put “this” old/new thing to the world? How it would be seen? And, am I the jack of all trades and the master of none? I felt terribly sorry and angst when someone told this to me… but at least I know that isn’t true, I have to trust my creative spirit and that’s why I started Soulfulcrane some years ago, there is a BIG AMOUNT OF LABOR OF LOVE in me to donate to the world and to those who are kind, quiet, generous and also forgettable with themselves, to those who Honor their own creativity whatever this represents in their life.
So please, bear with me and keep me in your blessing words, because I need a very big encouragement to show you what’s in my hat.
Probably I’ll tell you more and I’ll reveal this big news on next post, so stay tuned, I hope I will inspire those of you described above.
Since than, xoxo Jdeebella at Soulfulcrane - the creative nest in Italy
